I Want Cake

Cake is good
It is amazing and incredible
It is yummy and tasty
It is sweet
It makes moments better
It makes me feel good
And happy.

It is an indulgence that I sometimes just cannot afford
Whether it be literal cake or any other sweet or savory food that will go straight to my middle
Whether it be an extra hour watching TV instead of working out or expanding my mind through reading and learning
Whether it be bitching or complaining about work, co-workers or “the system” to just “get it off my chest”
Whether it be that relationship that is just not fully healthy for me to be in yet makes me smile, laugh and feel happier than I have in awhile
I have to fight the urge to give in to what feels good now to do what will be best for me in the long term.

–ShelleyRenae

IMY

I miss you.

I also miss my childhood
And my skinny years
I miss the time before I wore all this makeup
And I miss carefree summer days
I miss being taken care of
And I miss family night and homemade pizza.

I’m not a child or skinny anymore
I’m grown and thick and sexy
I’m beautiful in this makeup
I make my summers what I want them to be
I take care of myself and I’ve gained so much by doing so
I still get to see my family and once in awhile we still have homemade pizza.

And you,
You have made me better
Wiser,
Stronger,
Happier,
More patient, understanding, loving and kind.

I miss you.
And I am because we were.

-ShelleyRenae

Goodbye, JT

“Goodbye, no use leading with our chins, this is where our story ends,
Never lovers ever friends.
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day, but before you walk away,
I sincerely want to say.

I wish you bluebirds in the spring, to give your heart a song to sing,
And then a kiss, but more than this, i wish you love.
And if you like lemonade to cool you in some leafy glade,
I wish you health, and more than wealth, i wish you love.
My breaking heart and i agree that you and i could never be,
So with my best, my very best, i set you free.
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
Most of all, when snowflakes fall, i wish you love.
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
Most of all, when snowflakes fall, hot time, i wish you love.
All kinds of love, a whole gang of love.”

-Natalie Cole/ Frank Sinatra

Finding my Greater

Time to shake it off
Move on
He was great
Incredible and amazing even
But if he wasn’t going to stick around

There must be something greater
So now I must let him go
All of it go
So I can be ready for my greater.

-ShelleyRenae